Friday, April 5, 2013

This Is My Song!

I love music.

I know, big revelation...that should be pretty obvious to anyone who knows me - I mean, after all, my husband and I have been singing together pretty much since the day we met, we've been music ministers and song evangelists, and our cd collection pretty much would take over the house if we let it. It's not just a 'LIKE', it's pretty much our LIFE.

It's been a big part of my life from the time I was very small. Growing up, we had music playing in our house most of the time. My mother plays the piano, all of my siblings play instruments; by the time I left home we had not one, not two, but THREE pianos in our house. One was an upright grand that my mom has had for eons (it was so big and heavy my dad had to brace the floor in all of their homes to hold it- but boy did it have some resonance to it!), then when I was probably 8-10 they bought another smaller spinet-type upright for my sister to practice on, and when I was in my teens Dad rescued one from a college fraternity home that he was remodeling - a baby grand that had been trashed by the guys. They had it rebuilt and have it (and the others!) to this day. Many times Mom and I would each take a piano and play together.
But it wasn't just the instrumental music - we sang everything! It wasn't uncommon for us to ask each other questions in song - or to make up new (and often odd) words to an old song. On our 45+ minute trip to church three times a week, we'd take an old hymnal and sing the songs - if we didn't know them we'd learn them! 
Music was a way of life for us.

But there was one thing I never understood...

As much as we sang, played, made a joyful noise, etc. it always slightly puzzled me when Mom would start singing old hymns out of the blue.
She'd be minding her own business, maybe working around the house or in the garden, and you'd hear her start humming; after a while, you start to hear snippets of words coming through, then she'd break out in, "This is my Stoooory, this is my song! Praising my Saviour all the day long!" 

That song just didn't make much sense to me.

What was  the story?! WHY was she singing about 'praising the Saviour all the day long'?!

I wasn't exactly a heathen, folks. I grew up in church - at LEAST three times a week, every night during revival - if the doors were open, the Graham family was THERE. I knew the songs, I knew the stories.
But that song still didn't make sense.
It mostly aggravated me when she'd sing the lyrics wrong - maybe part of the third verse when she was singing the second verse, that sort of thing. But it didn't matter to her whether she sang it in the right order or not - she was just singing the words that meant something to her right then.

Fast forward a few years...

One day I learned the meaning in those words - and it's now one of MY favorite songs:

"Blessed Assurance - Jesus is mine!
Oh, what foretaste of Glory Divine!
I'm an heir of Salvation, purchase of Blood
Born of the Spirit, washed in His blood!"

I understand now - this IS my story!  Jesus IS mine! And because I'm an heir of Salvation I can praise my Saviour all the day long! I, who once longed for peace to come in all the jumbled chaos of my heart can sing it - and mean it -

"Perfect Submission, All is at rest!
I, in my Saviour, am happy and blest!"

Life's not always easy - we've had our share of very big problems. But God is gracious and merciful - and a very present help in time of trouble! And even in the trials I'm still blessed - and happy in my Saviour; even though I don't always understand how He's working, I know that He's working for my good.

And every once in a while, I'll be going along, minding my own business, maybe doing housework, maybe not, and I'll break out in a rousing chorus of,

"This is my Stoooory, This is my Sooooong!
Praising my Saviour all the day long!"

And my kids look at me like I just sprouted whiskers and a tail and say,
"Mom, could you stop singing - you're being too loud!"

And I just tell them, "Nope, can't do it!" 

Lord willing - They'll understand one day.


Jonathan and Judith Otto said...

I have some similar memories- my big annoyance was Mom's testimonies. And her tears EVERY SINGLE TIME she testified. I thought she was a little bit goofy. My friends' moms didn't cry and say the weird stuff she said. Now I hear myself testify... and I hear my mom ;-)

Brittany said...

Love it! That's become one of my favorite hymns as I've gotten older, too. You just keep on singing it - the kids will "get it" eventually ;)